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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 15:56

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was scared of men, in general

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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I write beautiful poetry .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One cannot live in the past .

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She was in good health!

I was very sick at this time too.

And i lived it daily.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was seconnd youngest,

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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It was going to be , some day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is soul school!.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

When she asked me how she looked .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Put me off passion for life!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Ive learnt so much.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Would this be the day?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She found it foreign!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Im still living with it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

(And it was in our own minds.)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was 9 years of age.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We all went to grammer schools

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She wouldn,t have been !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

What did i know ?

But it wasn’t much.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I think the readers, may guess!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So, i spoilt her more .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I have no regrets .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Comes on , in middle age.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I said to her

But, we were locked up after school.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She loved him until the end.

I waited trembling.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She married twice! .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My life is so biszare .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I never cut or harmed myself..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My family never makes their pension either.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

All the time i was locked up.

We were not on the streets..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He knew the spot.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Who then, do I blame.?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I don,t even have a pension.

I will be 64.

Was to survive, this bastard.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!